Frozen in a moment of detachment.
Im usually not big on this color, but right now it suits my mood perfectly. "THE MOOD" being the need for solitude, for loud music blasting into my ears and leaving no room for stable thought, when a word uttered is still heard ringing hours later.
The past week has been an introduction to my new life; Ive been spending a minimum of 5 hours a day in the library, and oddly enough it feels normal. I dont know what exactly it is that has me stressed, I have been pretty chilled out for the past couple of months, and suddenly I find myself snapping at people whom I THINK deserve it least.
I lost it today because it hit me that those closest to me, arent putting any effort into certain aspects of my life, aspects they share with me. I am expected to take an infinite number nerve wrecking and shaky steps forward, while they stand their ground. Things are going to have to change, starting now. I dont have it in me to go this on my own anymore.
S.
Im usually not big on this color, but right now it suits my mood perfectly. "THE MOOD" being the need for solitude, for loud music blasting into my ears and leaving no room for stable thought, when a word uttered is still heard ringing hours later.
The past week has been an introduction to my new life; Ive been spending a minimum of 5 hours a day in the library, and oddly enough it feels normal. I dont know what exactly it is that has me stressed, I have been pretty chilled out for the past couple of months, and suddenly I find myself snapping at people whom I THINK deserve it least.
I lost it today because it hit me that those closest to me, arent putting any effort into certain aspects of my life, aspects they share with me. I am expected to take an infinite number nerve wrecking and shaky steps forward, while they stand their ground. Things are going to have to change, starting now. I dont have it in me to go this on my own anymore.
S.
